Okay, I'm officially feeling old. My married friends just found out that they're pregnant. Congrats to Liz and Chris because I know they're been trying, but damn.... makes me feel old.

Not that I'm that old mind you, but I really thought I would be engaged right now, especially after my last relationship. Shit happens and I have to move on and get over it.

Mom thinks I'm going to marry some genius doctor that I meet out in Colorado. I laugh, but kind of secretly hope she's right. If everything went Mom's way, I'd be dating Jon. Not that I dislike Jon, he's a great guy and I've always had a little thing for him, but that would be weird and awkward.

There's a lot running through my head. I guess I just feel old because everyone is growing up. My best friend/cousin Katie is getting married and moving away for law school, Jake's at Law school, I'm moving to Colorado to get a PhD, Jessica is graduating and leaving, Dave's in NYC being a grown-up, as is Rutkowski...well, he's kind of a grown up (graduated and has a job), everyone is just going their separate directions and it's making me sad.

I think this would be easier if I had more people supporting me.

I thought of deleting my journal a couple days ago. I didn't really see the point in keeping it since I'll be busy and never write. I know my friends write though and it makes me happy to hear their thoughts even when I can't see them.

With that...

What would you do if I sang out of tune?
Would you stand up and walk out on me?
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song,
I will try not to sing out of key...
I get by with a little help from my friends.

Okay, my randomness is concluding, but before I go...

***NEW EMAIL ADDRESS*** Julie.Weidner@colorado.edu I know...hard to remember eh?